“life will be better in spring”

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hais.
i should stop being so mean.
feel so damn guilty over so many things..

have to look at the bright side of life.

okay, i was the one who locked it up.
i kept changing myself because i seemed so dumb whenever i think of the past self.
i didnt dare to be too happy because i know that when something goes wrong, i'll be even more unhappy.
i didnt dare to experience a lot of things and emotions because i'm afraid that it'll hurt eventually.
the more i mind about one thing, the more afraid i am.
stupid la. what dumb things i'm rambling about.

i'm trying to climb a hill.
it's still just a hill, not even a mountain yet.
but the higher i climb, the easier i can come tumbling down, and the less improvement i will make.
and one small stone, not rock, can cause me to trip and fall low.