“life will be better in spring”

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friday.
took a trip to sts..
didnt know what to do when i stepped in..
at least found out that practices are at night(7pm).
went home and out again, to cityhall then bugis.

hais.. i know i am disappointing..
but. hais.
my source of motivation isnt money anymore.
...
i wonder if that is a good or bad thing.
was reminded of ahgong every single day.
i don't know why. -.-
hais. but i'm so ... disappointing.
i dont know how to link that two tgt.
cos i'm emotionally retarded. -.-
WL. i always thought he would be standing somewhere near me every day.
sry but i'm mad. -.-
and so i tried to watch how to behave when i thought of that.
BUT. it's useless! :{
dont bao you me.
haha.
not worth it.
WL. see. know what i meant?!
i'm always thinking of these things..!
but he used to be my source of motivation..
so now, haha, i'm not studying hard. -.-
so i got bullshit results.
last time, just one sentence, which was just 4-7 words long, i would study until i sweat and feel very uncomfortable.
BUT. now, i'm like so damn relaxed.. -.-
so disgusting. i hate myself.
STUDY. cos o lvls are approaching.

WL. i failed ENGLISH.
D7.
WLWLWL. -.-
though tcher rounded off the marks to a C6.
combined humanities- C6.
geog- still in TK's class.
hais.
sometimes she's not that bad la.
BETTER THAN those B******.
haha. i meant those whom i dont regard as tchers.
they're worst than any gangsters out there.
wth's wrong with BSS?!
they said they will snip off students' fringes that touch their eyebrows.
lucky 5 more months to survive in that place only..
despite saying, "not with force, but with skill", the school's still doing those kind of things.
saying those "big big" words when they're forcing ppl to have their hair cut properly by suspending them and snipping fringes off themselves.
that's why someimtes SAYING is always DIFFERENT from DOING.
FRUSTRATED.
I HATE SCHOOL.
I HATE FACING IT.
but some of my classmates are really funny.
haha.