omg. lee jun ki was on tv just now, for Guerilla interview. (: some people like his eyes while some don't. they said his eyes make him look disrespectful. this is ridiculous. having small eyes makes people look disrespectful? he has always been working very hard no matter what it was, mayhaps perfection. if not, he really wants to live up to his expectations and thanks his fans in such a way. in my impression, he has always been very kind to his fans too. lee jun ki even planned his fan concert himself after filming Iljimae. no wonder i admire him. lol.
ms lim gave me a fright when she said there was an error in marking. ): i'm just very angry with my chemistry results although it weren't as bad as geography. that's because i need it in poly (i think) and if i were to take biology and not physics, i wouldn't mind that i got such a result for chemistry. furthermore i had high expectation for this subject.. what with the all 2-years tuition i have. my heart sank when ms lim said i could have done better.. ):
as for mathematics.. i realised i made plenty of careless mistakes and had very poor presentation. i'm afraid that i will panic during o lvl and i will do even worse. this is really worrying..
there was improvement in social studies, but i did badly for geography. hais. just feel sad when i think of L1R4. chemistry............ food science and technology...........
actually i don't know why i kept thinking of food tech. am i really ready for it? i don't know. HAIS.
i don't feel like i need recognition, that is, currently. i do not want to feel useless though. ): i just have no mood to study. not even at a time like this. why? i have no idea. i'm still as serious, but when comes to study.. i don't know what happened. hais. nvm. I WANT GOOD RESULTS. SO I WILL ACHIEVE THEM MYSELF.
wasted 2 hours in school today.. ): did comprehension halfway through and i find it tough.. HAIS. then it was time for PE. did not change into PE attire and chatted away while staring here and there during that 1 hour.
a tumor in the brain.. a wife and two kids. definitely it will be good if tumor is totally removed and there's no more threat from it.. but if.. ahem. just if. there's nothing that can be said presently of course, but when the time comes.. it'll be so verily.. grieving isn't it? touch wood touch wood. and then i got so depressed all of a sudden although the whole issue does not concern me.
fann wong and chris lee are so.. ugh, blissed? haha. must've spent a very big sum of money on the whole wedding. the hall was decorated in quite a simple manner (to me), except that the lighting was wonderful and it makes people feel comfortable. maldives eh.................................. so nice.
ooo.. the earth is shaking..... i thought i was the one shaking. there's an earthquake. ): why.
i haven't been sleeping peacefully because of 'split face', which V told us that day. didn't dare to shut my eyes. i know i cannot control what i will imagine. that's why. ):
this few days, when i saw tattoos on other ppl's body, i've been staring at the tattoos.. not pervert k. i'm just looking at the designs. -.- art is sth very fantastic, and sth that i'll never be able to create.
heartbreaker MV's cool. :D "I ask the same every day, you say that I've changed Will you please shut your mouth You speak while knowing who you're talking to Now I'm out of control, constantly while being alone In that spot, that place, it's goodbye and goodbye" well well, i'm starting to like big bang/ G-dragon/ TaeYang more and more. haha. good one, the lyrics.
so there is this part that goes, "Even though we've made love so many times, why have you gone", according to the person who posted these lyrics up in her/his blog. LOl. big bang rocks. :D FT island. :D and SUJU. hehe.
had lunch at MOS burger. and on the way home, on bus 139, saw that familiar person again. think i got stared. lol. cos i kept looking at him to see if he was someone. then i thought maybe i'm wrong, but still went to check just now. well, came to conclude that they are the same person.. but am still not very certain. lol. i'm not a stalker. i'm just curious. -.- haha.
turkey.
|| 2:25 AM
hot springs of pamukkale and caves of cappadocia in Turkey:
marvellous.
):
I AM UNHAPPY WITH MY RESULTS.
Monday, September 28, 2009 || 2:00 AM
LOL. YOO SEUNG HO WAS BORN IN BUSAN TOO, SAME AS LEE JUN KI.
I'M STARTING TO READ 'RANSOM MY HEART' AGAIN.
I DON'T LIKE MY RESULTS. NO MATTER WHAT RESULTS, I'LL SAY I DON'T LIKE THEM.
VERY UNHAPPY WITH PHYSICS, GEOGRAPHY, SS AND AMATHS. OH, AND CHINESE.
VERY BAD.
saw someone familiar today. lol.
~.~
Saturday, September 26, 2009 || 8:29 AM
blah. i rmb-ed this episode. touching one.
verily.
i forgot to mention something.
TODAY
I
FOUND SOMETHING
WHICH
I THOUGHT I'VE
LOST. {:
was happy that i felt that i'm going to cry.
hehe. i found it i found it.
it wasn't lost, wasn't misplaced, it's still with me.
all along it has been with me.
i've been holding it all this while.
yet i thought that i've lost it forever. {:
i do not ken how hurtful it is when one falls out of love or get rejected.
i've forgotten, or i've never known.
yes, the one typing now hates revenge.
but she has to understand that, when one is harmed, revenge can be inevitable.
because, it is hard for the victim.
not every one can forget about everything.
:|
|| 7:14 AM
kyaaaa~ yoo seung ho is my 5th, favourite korean actor!! OMG. you know that child actor who played a role in The Way Home? that film which talks about the life of a modern day young boy with his grandmother in the countryside?!! what the hell! he's now sixteen years old and 175cm tall!! OMG! omg omg omg omg!!!! i. he. so. omg. attractive. saw him in T-ara's Lie MV. but too bad he younger. -.- born in august. if he's older than 16, i think i'll love him like mad. LOL. sorry. -.- i think he's super famous now, looking at the information found in Google. hahahahaha! i like his role in the MV. heehee.
lee jun ki: 27 yrs old. kim hyun joong: 23 yrs old. kim ryeo wook: 22 yrs old. lee jae jin: 18 yrs old. yoo seung ho: 16 yrs old.
all of them are taller than 170cm. xD hahaha. 2 KIMs, 2 LEEs, and 1 YOO. so cool. lalalalala~ current loves are lee jae jin and yoo seung ho. hahaha. i won't forget lee jun ki, i'll wait for his new drama. and lee jae jin, he's still my msn display picture, and phone's wallpaper. and then, i'm watching videos of T-ara and yoo seung ho now. weeeee~ lalala~~ felt so happy all of a sudden. -.- kekeke!
next week's plan: tuesday- night study. lolol. (: friday- 's dinner. wahaha. i'll eat till he drop. -.- saturday- dinner at sakae with friends! :D
): feels so sinful. ought to study harder right. hais.
and, i need to work harder after O level to earn back all the money i've used. cos i just feel that those money, i ain't suppose to touch them, unless they're needed for studies.. sorraye.
one more month to o lvl.. scared, horrified, terrified. ): what can i study in just one month?!
i'm starting to put all my efforts into Physics already. i don't know if it is be the right thing to do. maybe i should do more of enlish and combined humanities..
$$$. have $$$, may not have good health, love or happiness. BUT, without $$$, there's definitely NO love. :D
lalala~
went to Ion this afternoon. oh no, before that we went to Heeren. hahaha. something funny happened when we were outside NUM. that scene, those two guys' expressions. hilarious. dined in at hong kong cafe. i love hong kong. ): i want to go again. ): t'was such a wonderful place. ):
i love money. shall earn them myself. -.-
Lie by T-ara featuring T-ara & YOO SEUNG HO.
|| 6:35 AM
Ardor.
Friday, September 25, 2009 || 8:25 AM
KIM HYUN JOONG sorry oh my girl~~~ (his song :D)
LEE JAE JIN.
HAHA. HEHE. HEEHEE. SHEESH. LOL. :D
WHAT THE HELL.
SCAM. i'm using com..
today's itinery does not include this.
one more month left, and i don't know which subject to start with.
i don't know how the hell i can improve geography and social studies.
i think i almost put on a grim face for the whole of today and yesterday.
was annoyed and unsatisfied.
LACK OF CONTENTMENT.
not well enough for higher chinese, not good enough for emaths, was expecting more for chemistry, could have done better for physics if i weren't disliking it so much or paying attention to maths instead, no matter what i will still score badly for humanities, english.. hopeless.
think i was angered yesterday cos i really did do some work..
freesia and daisies. (:
ahh what the hell!
i'm just very happy with those results.
not enough, it's never enough.
i must remember this.
expectations should be higher this time.
quit being defeated all over and over againnnnnnn.
it takes so much hatred to kill.
when there's nothing left to care about, anyone can do almost anything.
z.z bad. dirt. unwanted scrapes.
Thursday, September 24, 2009 || 1:26 AM
GRR. i'm still unable to draw a dragon, let alone a phoenix.
that's why i admire sunil. haha.
of course a 'rising' dragon, unlike this one above.
mobsters, mafias are scary after all.. ):
anw, for russian mafias, stars tattooed on their knees meant that they do not kneel down to anyone.
saw this on a web, from a book/movie called Eastern Promises i think.
gory. cruel. blood. ): pain.
fine, i'm not tolerating my nonsense anymore.
come on, just make me feel more infuriated.
bad, though i knew i didn't expect more.
wth. i just wanna beat more people now.
can't let too many people overtake me.
i don't like this.
...
Wednesday, September 23, 2009 || 3:36 AM
right. i'm feeling the guilt now. i'll regret not studying last night.
i'm supposed to score well. only improvement are allowed. not doing from bad to worse. if i'm still like this, i'll be failing to complete another task.
hate roses. they're sadness, not romance.
|| 2:47 AM
o.. m.. g..
i'm dead. physics rocks, i'm the one who sucks.
lol. it'll be such a disappointment. results i mean.
wouldn't be able to achieve it already then. no top fifteen.
i wonder if i'm really serious in achieving good results.
right, i'm not. otherwise i'll do anything to get it.
a-n-y-t-h-i-n-g.
but since i'm not, that means i don't care a single thing about results of subjects i dislike.
i may regret if my O level results suck.
so physics paper one marks the end of prelims.
need to study already..
hais. must really take out books, concentrate, and start learning already.
just finished watching SS501's mv.
GRRR. it's gross, episode 2 is omg- violent.
some guy with four scars across his face just sucked another guys finger and he cut it off using something weird. OMG.
made me went all flustered and my hands turned cold.
then hyunjoong got shot in his chest, writhed in blood on the floor, still wanting to protect that woman.
and who another member got shot too, somewhere near his neck.
oh one more one more, hyun joong threw his dagger and it hit on one stranger's neck from his behind. then after hyun joong left, that 'other' member moved infront and tried pulling the dagger out or something. but imagine this okay, the dagger stabbed that guy's neck deep, try thinking of that member moving it or pulling it out. omg. it's hard. -.-
oh furthermore, when he did that, the stabbed person moved along with his action of pulling the dagger..
i still cannot stand blood.
overcome it overcome it~
one day i shall.
thinking again, maybe i still preferred peaceful and normal life.
but i thought i'll be unsatisfied if my life isn't unusual enough.
-.-
hehe, i cannot stop my imagination from running wild.
cos actually, i have something violent in my mind.
wanted to describe it out.
but nvm. and i've been thinking of such scenes for so long.
TWICE.
Tuesday, September 22, 2009 || 3:34 AM
i hate sad endings. wth. i'm still unaccustomed to tragedies. EEW. but i'm not very pleased with happy endings still. i believe in spirits. and when there's death, feelings remain no matter how many centuries have passed. ... whatever.. there's a missing screw in my head.
when history repeats itself.
|| 1:51 AM
meaningless killing vs meaningful death.
for this whole life of mine, will i ever witness someone pointing his gun at another? be it as a by-stander, as a victim or as the one holding the gun himself.
fine it's cruel. i don't know what has got into my mind recently.. i'm just curious.. -.-
amaths paper two!! my calculator ALMOST broke down i think. omg, was freaked out by it. i think it's either the screen is spoilt or it's time to change its battery.. woah. i thought it would be my retribution for laughing at cousin when his chinese dictionary broke down during two very important exams.. ): unlucky chap.
once a mistake, forever a mistake. that's why decisions are hard to make. even when you simply do what you have wanted to do, it may still end up to be sth wrong in the future.
la la LA~
こくりゅう(kokuryuu.) black dragon; a different world.
Monday, September 21, 2009 || 3:44 AM
i always believe that there's a different world out there.
just thought that there're exists two very different worlds, or maybe 3.
and i belong to none, or in between two.
as for the third one, i've never seen it before, but i'm quite interested in it.
however, suppose one day i can really get involved with people of that world, i've got a lot to learn.
haha. weird huh.
i'm not ruthless enough anyway, too timid as well.
i'm talking aliens' language?
heehee.
my current phone's wallpaper is cool.
think sick, think sick. sick in the mind.
but it's still art y'know. haha.
i think i'm expecting less and less for amaths, that's why my amaths is deteriorating.
well well, used to have high expectations.
there's so much that i need (and maybe want) to learn.
omggg.
Sunday, September 20, 2009 || 5:03 AM
i should regret playing psp last night. -.- i'm gonna dl disgaea 2, maybe FF: dissidia and Naruto Shippuden: legends: Akatsuki Rising.
yeap. and i will complete my bleach: soul carnival quest.
but now, i should be studying. -.-
i am loving arrancars more and more. -.- of course i still like ichigo. LOL. GRIMMJOW!!! ape that is damn cool. ULQUIORRA!!! stupid serpent-eyed.
i love pets society. the flowers and cupcake trees are so sweeeet. lol.
and and and the main thing is.... i saw jy today!! at novena. lol. didn't expect to see him. had a short chat. he missed his bus. lol. haven't talked to him for so long, even when we went malaysia, did not talk much then. hehheh.
i have a sudden interest in.. mobsters. as in those in huge gang or no, 'organisation'. lol. i wonder how they live, what happens when a boss of the organisation falls in love (if he ever will) etc etc.. so cool. will he give up everything just to protect someone?
i know i'm weird. i always am. haha.
i hate being defeated.
Saturday, September 19, 2009 || 10:59 PM
omgggggg. DISGAEA 2 DARK HERO DAYS.
i'll play you after o lvls. :D
and bleach: soul carnival too.
i'll make ichigo kurosaki beat all those arrancars. :D
yesterday..... bleach season 7 ended.
that ichigo and orihime... like they're couples like that. -.-
what about rukia!? she's dying already still never go treat her wounds.
i think he defeated grimmjow, but there's still a ulquiorra.
lololol. anime-mad.
i'm doing badly for prelims.
woke up this morning and recalled the fact that i won't get an A for amaths.
i reckoned there wouldn't even be an A2.
ZZZ.
and my physics and combined humanities.... cannot make it.
hais.
what's wrong with me?
lol. i don't know. -.-
extreme boredom.
Friday, September 18, 2009 || 3:18 AM
grr. exams are tiring. and i couldn't sleep in peace. lol. couldn't sleep at night, neither in the afternoon. sad.
weeee. my tutor also thinks that food science is good. :D heehee.
argh, screwed my physics, amaths and geography too. horrible. z.z
my cousin gave me all his assessment books though i only asked for physics ones. lol. and i only realised that he left post-its with a few messages for me(i suppose) on the books when i came home today. haha.
decisions are hard to make.
DEJECTION.
Tuesday, September 15, 2009 || 2:01 AM
exams are horrible, though the tension can be quite cool sometimes. -.- suddenly no confidence uh. think i'll do worse than mid year... may even fail subjects. zzz. fat hope of getting higher positions already. ): sad. need to buck up after prelims. but i have no motivation at ALLLL. it's one of the suckiest thing in my life. HAIS. just hope that i can do well for O level. ):
i love exams....
Friday, September 11, 2009 || 11:17 PM
REASONS FOR VARIATIONS IN GLOBAL FOOD CONSUMPTION: ECONOMIC POWER, FOOD STABILITY, NATURAL EVENTS, SOCIO-POLITICAL FACTORS, TECHNOLOGY, PROVISION FOR FUTURE NEED.
IMPACTS: OBESITY, MALNUTRITION AND STARVATION. malnutrition: lack of food/ imbalanced diet leading to poor health. starvation: sever shortage of food leading to death.
WOAHHHH. i can only rmb the sub-headings after studying till 2am last night. nvr forget, just that i refuse to rmb. -.- can't elaborateeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
alright, here's some physics definition: Heat: is the thermal energy transferred from hotter region to colder region. Temperature: .... .... .... forgot. -.- T.T
i wanna surpass 17th, and get at least a 15th.. but there're so much things on my mind that i cannot concentrate on just studying. wth. past things, present stuffs, and future problems. so sick so sick so sickkkkkkkkkk. it's just so hard to just put everything aside and study properly.
I LOVE BLEACH LOVE ICHIGO KUROSAKI LOVE RENJI LOVE ONE PIECE LOVE LUFFY LOVE ZORO LOVE ROBIN LOVE NAMI...........
Luffy and Ichigo are superb. :D
i had the worst and longest nightmare last night or this morning or whatever, during my sleep. omgggg. it's so scary.
就是因为经历过， 体会过， 所以才会更了解。 也因为了解， 才应该更懂得体贴。。。
LOL. crazy.
never will i expect ppl to understand me anymore, because i don't understand them too.
what a change. stupid woman. lol. i'm always scolding myself in every posts. -.- there's nothing for me to protect. -.-
air-stewardess?
Thursday, September 10, 2009 || 7:40 AM
i don't know what i want to be next time. ): maybe an accountant, chemist, air-stewardess, florist.. hais.
so afraid of o lvl. but worrying is helpless and pointless.
went out today. shopped at vivo then at orchard. branded shops. -.- bought nothing. wanted to, but since i didnt yearn for the things i saw, so just forget about buying. i want wakame!!~~~~
humans, oh humans.
i hate roses. but sometimes i love their thorns.
kidding.
those tv characters very bad lo. bad women and bad men. disgusting. love here love there. anyhow go love untill this one cry that one cry. stupid. -.-
fine i'm mad again.
sentimental. LOL.
Wednesday, September 9, 2009 || 6:03 AM
WTH you know?! sist. got A1 for english!!!!! WTHHHHH. damn jealous. -.- never knew she's this capable in english. then when i looked at her chinese results, i was like, why her chinese so gou li one. LOL.
i wanna go on a cruise, but not on Star Cruise. i wanna go to Club Med, but it's Mauritius' and Maldives'. i wanna go to Japan! i wanna go to Shanghai! ): i'm not rich after all. haha.
i miss physics tuition. i miss my physics tutor. T.T i don't miss him, but i miss his explanations. T.T not bad uh, quite patient also. haha. i miss the time when i wanted to do well for physics so that i can show him the results with pride. T.T T.T
can someone or something agitate me please? i need to wake up to my senses already. ): encouragment doesn't help. LOL. crazey.
oh now i understand. animes always say things like the fight for two purposes: one is to protect, and one is for pride. while some fight for the sake of pleasuring themselves. so it's the same for studying. i want good results in order to show to people whom i don't wanna disappoint. sometimes, with pride too. but i don't study because i'm very interested in it. haha.
a bit of.. abnormality?
|| 5:19 AM
woke up at 8.40am today. played bad. , and perspired a lot. :\ as usual, lousy. cos i don't run, and kept missing. ): warm, it as super warm in hall. played a bit of psp, couldn't win too. -.- lousy.
YAY. next season of American's Next Top Model is showing on channel 5. :D
seriously, i never knew i would appreciate One Piece, cos i never knew it could be this touching. recent's Bleach and One Piece are damn moving. i would have weeped if no one's at home. LOl. wonder how rukia can survive with such deep wounds. -.-
'Like an idiot, you pretended to be a strong woman, but at least be beautiful in the end.' from マダラ蝶 by UVERworld. [:
'Cry for, in a world where things of great value can’t be seen.' 'NO. 3 The tricolour of love, equality, and freedom The pose of a triangle controlling all
NO. 2 Good and evil are a duet' all from the truth by UVERworld.
i just love UVERworld. :D
i'll try to maintain the position. hais. i don't hate studying. i just don't like the way i'm being restricted. like i have to learn about things that i'm not interested in. ): i wanna get into top 10 in class. but i know i can't. yeah, and maybe it's because i am too lazy. not till the very last minute, i will not strive. z.z WEEEEEE~ I'M OFFICIALLY A DISAPPOINTMENT. -.-
T.T
maybe i should just give up on learning drums..
i earn for too much freedom.
argh, no matter what i won't let myself do VERY VERY VERY BADLY. i just hate myself for not trying my best.
cowardice.
Monday, September 7, 2009 || 10:05 AM
sucker's running away from feelings still. haha. something that can never be faced after all. her stubborn-ness kills, it'll ruin things for her. me. [:
i wish to ‘ 闭关修炼’from 13 oct till 19 oct. cos 20 oct is graduation day, got to go back to school. hope i'm able to. yeap, and prepare enough credits in my phone. it doesnt mean i'll cut connections with people, but i wish to be alone and to study. i need motivation.. ): fine, i almost forgot, i almost forgot EVERYTHING. i can't even rmb if i have made any promise or sweared anything or not. zzz, but still, i think... I WILL SURVIVE. because i must.
:D
ridiculous confidence and optimism again.
self-denial is 'cool' or stupid? haha.
GO ON. (UVERworld) [:
Sunday, September 6, 2009 || 9:43 AM
LOLA by MARC JACOBS.
i dreamt of it last night. ):
i wasted today again. hais.
was both happy and annoyed.
hehe.
took bus to novena and wta?
ppl were crowding and blocking pathways.
omg. luckily there was this guy walking in front of me, so that i don't have to 'open the way' myself. haha.
need to buck up. ):
never force me to do what i dislike.
never rush me to complete stuffs that i'm not interested in too.
it'll only make me turn rebellious and everything that came out will be like shit.
i know being this obstinate won't bring me anywhere except for failure.
but i'm used to leading my life in my own way. hehe.
i must start doing revision tmr. ):
sorry that i'm still slacking like this.
i never try my best untill the very last minute.
and i won't give up yet.
because i hate to live with regrets. hehe.
furthermore, some mistakes committed can't be amended anymore.
to the fullest, my life will be!
LOL? crazy.
i dislike my life still. (:
i wonder where all that optimism came from?..
-.-
no matter what shit happens, i must have foresight.
some ppl are meant to be jokes. -.-
hais. calm calm. i must be CALM.
hehehe.
i like silence all of a sudden. -.-
sometimes it is really good to keep quiet and just look at what others do and listen to what they say.
and then in my own mind, i'll just keep the questions or comments to myself.
besides, it may train me to be more patient and calm too.
haha. silence is really cool.
but why did i try to break it a short while ago?
... guess it's because when too much things are being bottled up, the can naturally burst.
ambivalence.
MARC JACOBS. (: !
Saturday, September 5, 2009 || 7:19 AM
kamilla charcoal punk zip long sleeve cardigan. cecilia #C392027. Bracelet with rock crystal roundels, rock crystal balls, and strass, and black chain. Little Marc Jacobs Black pinwheel lace dress (so cute -.-). Canvas white pinwheel lace dress. daisy watch. LOLA parfume.
all these are from MARC JACOBS. haha. all i can do is look at them. ): but i love the cardigan! I LOVE CARDIGANS. I LOVE SKINNIES. I LOVE TULIPS, MAGNOLIAS (MOKUREN) ETC. (cos they look fake. -.-) I LOVE DRUMS. I LOVE FOOD. I LOVE PINK. LOL. I LIKE RYEO WOOK. I LIKE LEE JUN KI. I LIKE AARON YAN. I LIKE LEE JAE JIN. I LIKE BIG BANG. I LIKE DNT (Dragon and Tiger). I LIKE FT. ISLAND. OMG. HAHA. MAD.
I AM TRYING TO LOOK FOR A SONG CALLED THE NEW CLASSICS BY KANSHA FEATURING WISE, MAY J VERY DESPERATELY. T.T
I LIKE FACEBOOK'S PETS SOCIETY. I AM GOING TO BUY ALL THOSE FLOWERS IN THOSE SHOPS THERE. OMG. I'M AN CRAZAYE ASS. -.-
met adeline at toa-ps' delifrance today. its tiring to 'brisk walk'. lol. studied there after having lunch. laughed non-stop. -.- haha. then saw a lot of beattyiansat interchange. *frownssss* on bus 139, i saw kelvin and vincent. haha. or rather, i spotted them. badminton. ):
hehe, crying is good for health.
oh, one more thing- I LOVE TATTOOS. I LOVE ALCOHOL. but i won't have tattoos, neither will i drink alcohol NOW. lol.
what did i want to say? ... ... ... OH. i wanted to say this: i'll try to speak less vulgarities. -.-
and, i feel being quiet again. -.-
i still don't feel like i've lived my life yet. -.- maybe yes, but for like a few months only?
argh. forget it, i'll stop looking and searching for that kind of stupid feeling. it will come to me when the time ripes. what a dumb ass. -.-
faster be depressed la. i wanna be serious getting prepared for O lvl. -.-
I LOVE WATCHING MEDIACORP'S PARIS AND MILAN. LOL.
i'm crazeyyyyyy todayyyy. haissss.
i don't live life to repeat mistakes.
Friday, September 4, 2009 || 5:05 AM
OMG. chinese paper 2 was damn cool! i wrote untill my fingers hurt and palms sweat, and i even told myself to write till the very last minute before i give up. LOL. as for paper 1, i think it's the same fate as my english paper 1 too. ): i wanted to write 报章报道, but i thought i really couldn't think of any good content, so i attempted narrative story. here's the question, "人生中总有让你感动的时刻，试写出这段经历和你当时的感受。" alright, i think it's something like that. so i started brainstorming for some ideas. and then i realised i could only relate it to ppl crying, and then sadness. -.- so i thought i side-tracked. then i started checking up the dictionary on what 感动 means, but, hais, it doesn't help at all.. i came up with a stupid story that isnt touching at all. wth. funny me.
struggling with my own attitude towards studies. hell. it's stupid. i can't seem to get serious with prelims. o lvl is approaching. ): no confidence. need to mug, but didn't mug. ):
depression is good for health.
... kay, just joking. i'm more used to depression.
... right, this i don't know if i'm just kidding or not.
but i'm freaking optimistic recently. -.- yes, 'freaking'.
plumeria flowers in school, near the canteen, are blooming and blooming! -.- really.
i am always talking to myself. ):
hais. i'm super scared this month.. especially when i'm always alone at home and when i encounter weird people.. everytime when i reach home, i will start getting suspicious and when i open the door, i will always imagine a scary figure standing behind it.. then it will be a relief when nothing appears, but i will go look behind the doors just to check that nothing weird is behind.. T.T i can drive myself insane just by imagining all these.. today i was thinking of some body falling from above and then a grabbing the metal bars of my house's windows. T.T!! i can never live alone like this. haha. cos i will 疑神疑鬼..
but sometimes i wished i could communicate with spirits. -.- while most of the times i will regret having that kind of thought. ): what a weird being.. haha.
YAY. RANSOM MY HEART!
i forgot.
Wednesday, September 2, 2009 || 5:53 AM
i forgot about peach blossoms that time.
well well, i feel so useless, indecent, incapable and stupid all of a sudden.
i'm bad at sports.
doesn't fare very well in studies.
have no leadership skills.
no good character.
oh. my. gosh.
nay, shall not give up.
not worth it.
it's just one paper that has gone by, there's a much more way to go.
