“life will be better in spring”

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some games weren't meant to be played, by me.
haha.

anyway, health's very important.

i live in a house full of weird people.
that's why i'm weird. -.-
my mother says she dreams of funeral and relatives who passed away every night.
i wonder if she has the ability to communicate with the dead.
k, just being nonsensical.
nobody cares about one another here. or mayhaps no one shows it. haha.
cold-blooded right. she's saying that she needs to change the accounts' names or whatever to mine and pig's so that the money won't be taken away after she dies.
and then the two of us will need to live somewhere else. but i just didn't care much.
lol. and, his presence in my life almost makes no difference whether he's there or not.
just like my existence. -.- haha.
pig's living a carefree life, even more carefree than i am.
anyway, it just makes me very super duper uncomfortable just mentioning words like 'family', 'love', 'sister', 'mother', 'father'.
i think i treat someone else better than how i treat them, though i don't converse with that person often.

will one be affected and speak vulgarities very often, if he hears them almost every single day?

i feel as if my veins are throbbing such that they want to be cut.
-.-?