“life will be better in spring”

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27.11.09
actually before we set off, i had a very bad feeling about the trip. but i'm in one piece now. haha.
i have no idea why i couldn't sleep well and easily on the bus.
so i was looking out the window and all these. Will from The Last Song was such a weird guy, to me it seems so. and then there were wild orchids that bloomed along the road.
witnessed a car crash. as in, when we were on the way up to Cameron, there was this car which was toppled over.. scary.
before we reached the top, the tour guide said maybe we could pinch our nose and take deep breaths so that we'll feel better with the ears.
out of the sudden luyi said, "how are we going to take deep breaths with nose pinched."
i don't know why, but i burst out into laughters. -.-
alright, so when we reached there, we had dinner first and then checked in to Equatorial hotel.
standing at the room's balcony sucks, cos i'm scared of heights.

28.11.09
breakfast sucks. haha.
thiswas the first time i played pool. hehez.
then i forgot where we went..
bee farm, rose valley, cactus, strawberries, tea farm, pasamalam lol all these..
crap, at the rose valley, we became stalkers!
took pics, and pics, and pics again. mostly of plants. flowers.
i ate beer flavoured ice-cream.. tastes weird.
steamboat for dinner.
after we went back to hotel and bathed, we played pool again. my balls kept jumping. -.- so noob.
at night, 3plus am, i heard a sound. figured it as a laughter when i thought it couldn't be anyone from above and below's balconies..
i was scared stiff.
but i had another dream. i dreamt of Lee Jae Jin!!!
i was like, saw him alone somewhere in this building.
then i called out to him and asked him if he could take a picture with me. LOL.
afterwards we even chatted for quite a while in english.
haha. so cool y'know!!!
this dream made me so damn happy for a moment..
tsk, i still thought it was real.. -.-

29.11.09
played another round of pool before we finally set off, back to singapore. lolz.
yeaps, so we went to Ipoh first and visited some places.
the monkeys were damn cute!! cuter than my monkey. hahaha. that was one of the few times when i felt so excited over such minor stuffs, cos they were just some monkeys that may swipe people's faces.
those monkeys behave like some comedians. haha.
told you i love monkeys!!~
Kwon Ji Yong (G-Dragon)! Choi Seung Hyun (T.O.P)!
man, i think i was kinda influenced by lowyijing. lols.
when we were almost at Singapore Custom, there was a traffic jam.. wth.
but overall, i swear it feels damn good, great, fantastic, marvellous, incredible, cool to be away from Singapore. haha.

30.11.09 (today)
woke up early in the morning and went to the airport to send Sunil and Rakesh off.
hais. there was this weird kind of feeling. -.-
after they went, we took the skytrain to and fro. from T2 to T1, then T1 back to T2, and finally from T2 to T3, and then our breakfast.
then we went to cineleisure. played pool again.
pool for straight 3 days. haha.
was reallyreally noob. -.-
how i hope i can learn to play pool better from someone.
i wanna be the queen of pool!
haha. okay kidding. i just wanna be a super good drummer and skilled in playing pool.
skilled is enough.

i should stop kidding myself and control myself more.

f you phone. i couldn't f-ing upload my pictures because it's f-ing spoilt at the part where i connect the usb to phone. f. what am i gonna f-ing do with this phone. f.
i'm just f-ing mad that i'a penniless, just f-ing feel that i should save more money.

know why i like MinHwan more and more?
cos he wears leather jackets in recent interviews and activities, his hair colour is the one i like, he wears earrings, he wears cardigan in Love Letter, and most importantly, he's a drummer.
totally who i like. LOL.
kk shall stop babbling.

WOAH. i'm watching IRIS now and TOP looks so cool in it. like some big boss.
it's a cruel, and weird show.

yay~ i just came backkk.
i think i was more confident today, though my hands and feet were still sweating.
and today's stuffs were more challenging, but i guess we were able to hit 'em more 'easily'.
not that kind of easy, but another kind of easy. lols~
coolz.
i hope we're not the least smart students he have. ~
oh, and the bass and sometimes snare are driving me crazaye.

my gosh! So Long, Au Revoir's cover is cute.
hehe.

i thought Jae Jin was a good boy, a good student..
but when he wore that super big ear stud (it's bigger than what Seung Hyun wears), that kind of image was spoilt..
nvm, he wanted to be sexaye didn't he.

kinda like lly's gray-coloured words in the blog.

OH SHAT!~ i overcharged the PSP..

oh yeah, forgot to mention something, F.T Island will release another japanese album in December. *evil laughter*

it's quite relaxing now.
but since nothing much happened, i'll just blog about F.T Island before anything 'different' happens. lol. craps.

initially i had wanted to download all the videos which urls i added to Favourites,
so that i can at least shorten the Favourites list.
but, i ended up adding more urls to the list...
aucks i'll try to download all the videos and sync them into Ipod before i sleep on thursday night.
and it's so tough and annoying to find good quality Idol Army videos with english subs.

weeeeee~Lee Jae Jinnnn. Lee Hong Kiiiii.
and i came back just because i missed Choi Min Hwan. lolz.
actually i merely wanted to sync the newly added videos into Ipod.

there was a temp. job offered to me just now, it'll probably last for only 3 days.
provided that no interview was needed.
but i rejected it.
i need to properly organise my schedule somehow.

maybe there's still this something that i wanna avoid.

YAY, I'VE GOTTEN DOUBLE DATE TODAY. muahahahhaazxzxz.
now i find wonbin quite attractive cos he's tallllll. lolzxzxz.
but i still likexzxz minhwan-shiiiiii. :D
hehehehezxz. HE'S CUTE in a funny way. hahahaxzxz.
I LOVE IDOL ARMY SEASON 2. OMG IT WAS COMPLETED HOSTED BY F.T ISLAND.
too bad they only subbed ep 1 and 2 on youtube.

i'm trying to get a chick thing similar to minhwan's.
ugh. so tough to get.

1 2 3 4 .
1 and 2 and 3 and 4 and.
1 e and a 2 e and a 3 e and a 4 e and a!!!
hi-hat(R)+bass drum(R foot); hi-hat(R); hi-hat(R)+snare drum(L); hi-hat(R); repeats again. [eight beat!!!]

okay this is mad. tough work.

The next thing i want is just a pair of SilverFox drumsticks..

just sincerely hopes that i can still practice even if i've gotten a job and that i'll be able to get some administrative work kind of job.

ugh. shall stop being a worrywart.

i will definitely not give it up.
perhaps that's the only thing which i am so interested in already.
NEVER.

穷人就要过穷人的日子?
NEVER. DEFINITELY NOT NOW.
i've already felt rotten, i don't wanna feel even worse.
neither do i wanna regret having wasted away my time.

船到桥头自然直.
heewee. Cx

MinHwan likes Krystal from f(x), JaeJin and G-Dragon like Sulli from F(x), and even JongHoon likes another dunno-who from the same girls group..

Hais. okay. minari is just an idol.. an idol..........




forget about Udders, now i hope Cedele will hire me please.

going overseas during holidays aren't very wise no matter which holiday it is.

and maybe it would be better to learn drumming at yamaha. -.-

i had another super cool dream this morning. (cos i woke at near 1pm, so it's morning. lol. no bragging no bragging.)
actually initially it was just a fight with guns and among many different groups of people.
but don't know why, towards the end, F.T triple appeared and i got myself beside MinHwan.
LOL. then we were wearing the same shirt. after that he started drawing on the both of our sleeves. and then i asked him for his signature on another piece of paper. LOL. was even hoping he could draw a chicken on the sleeve.
i dunno why but it felt SWEET. and now it sounds WEIRD and IDIOTIC.
makes me seem like a stupid fan as well. haha. crazy one.

so i woke up and switched on the com just to blog about this.
and i realised F.T Island will be on next month's Teens Mag. WOOHOO! gonna purchase it. kekeke.

DISGAEA 2: CHAPTER 6. COLOSSEUM.

ahhh. super slow.

I've finally changed my url.
frankly speaking i dislike my previous address. it doesn't even suit me.

initially i wanted to put as 'tripleloveletter', then 'colorful-sensibility' or 'cheerful-sensibility'.
but i have decided to combine 'Raining' with 'Double Date'.
that explains why there's a R in front, it stands for Raining.
i see this url as: when you date, there'll be rain.
therefore, to me, love wouldn't bring happiness and it'll not last.
hahaha! stupid emo. -.-

i'm revealing my [secret] now. LOL.
oh. my. gosh..
had another dream again.
i have no idea why recently, when i slept on another bed, i keep having dreams related to him.
but nvm. i don't mind.
always feel glad having dreamt of ah gong. hahahas.
but i got scolded by in the dream i had this morning...
it really spoilt my mood. sad....
this is the fifth/sixth dream already.
such dreams are motivating. they remind me of what i should do. lalala~

i can't believe that O level is over..
and though it is, i still feel that i need more time, to do a lot of things.

watched 2012 ytd at marina with friends.
i agree with yijing that the effects are good.
but to me, it just look like some horror movie. -.- and the duration of the show was crazily long.
couldn't help but kept fidgeting. (i slid and sat up, crossed and un-crossed my legs, leaned my head back and rested my elbow which supports my head on my lap..)
i've got to say that the everyone-shut-up and points-middle-finger part was quite hilarious.
i think those sitting to the right side of me were laughing at how the main cast will never die even with all thse volcanic eruptions and earthquakes.
true that normally they'll never get hit or die.
and they always start with numerous ppl travelling tgt untill they die one by one..
after an hour inthe cinema, i was thinking about what i'll do if i know the world is really coming to an end. (blame the influence that the effects of this movie had on me.)
as the movie ended, we dined in Pizza Hut. :P

whenever there's something to enjoy, there bound to be things that will trouble you.

O LEVEL HAS ENDED.

FIRST, I JUST HOPE THAT RESULTS WOULDN'T BE BAD.

SECOND, I'M GOING TO WORK.

THIRD, I'M GOING TO LEARN SOMETHING.

FOURTH, I'M GOING TO 'CHIONG' DISGAEA 2.

FIFTH, I'M GOING OUT.

SIXTH, F.T ISLAND. SARANGHAMIDAAAA!

SEVENTH, SLEEP.

MERRY CHRISTMASSSS!!!
(just feel like shouting something. and christmas will be the next occasion right?)

woah...
holidays are coming.. tmr will be the last paper- chemistry paper one.
actually i have no confidence for this paper, since i always do badly for mcqs..

alright, the main thing is i won't have much money to spend. T.T
SIGH SIGH SIGH.
i've spent a lot this year..
the other things i need to spend on during holidays are, $25 for F.T Island tees, $28 for AOR registration fee, money for going out and food all these... clothes? i think no need already.
can only shop for fun.. walk the streets for nothing. -.-
U.D.D.E.R.S!!!! PLEASE CALL ME IMMEDIATELY!! I NEED A JOB.
x.x
tsk.. the money i spent aren't even mine..
i mean they weren't earned by me. -.-

sometimes i get really pissed when i think of myself wasting away the past 16 years, not learning any skills, especially something related to music.
even untill now, money's still a problem. *PEEVED*
all his fault.

i'm so distracted by PSP.. Disgaea 2..
tsk.......

saving money by having lunch + dinner at home today. -.-
i wonder what can i eat since i've already eaten instant noodles just now.
wth..

I LOVE YOU, $$$.
(who to be blamed. who cares anyway.
maybe it's no one's fault, or maybe it is. *shrugs*)

woo..... feels so tired and sleepy.
was exhausted after playing badminton for only 10-15mins with running about and jumping.
everytime we took such great efforts to eat lunch or sth after badminton............
i think i wouldn't have survived this well if i wasn't quite like a monkey usually.......

troubling troubling.......................

hmm... i should resume to reading The Last Song soon.
and, the ice-cream shop haven't called me to inform me about my job yet!!!!
getting a bit worried already.

disgaea 2's still at chapter 3 only..
takes great determination, efforts, time, patience and a few strategies to play this game.
-.-

i shall try losing weight...
cos i love skinny jeans.
and F.T Island always wear skinny jeans as well.
one way to do so is, by going some other planet, such as the moon, that has lesser pull of gravity.
.
.
.
-.-

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MIN HWAN!!! :D
i've been loving you for hmm, more than a month only?
haha. i'm just a new F.T Island fan.
Saranghamida! ♥♥♥♥♥ ♥♥♥♥♥ ♥♥♥♥♥ ♥♥♥
Happy 18th Birthday! (in fact, he's only 17. but in korea, they're one year older when compared to how we look at our age.)

I really hope to get an A2 for physics... (it may be impossible, but.. well, just hope so.)
actually really thankful to my helpful friend for teaching me physics mcq questions for like almost 2-3 hours? hahhah.
and my ex physics tutor!~ cos i actually remembered some of the questions he went through and i think was able to answer similar ones.
:D

she's fuming.
she refers to me.

ahhhhh. i love UVERworld, Aqua Timez aren't that bad, and LAST ALLIANCE is super duper crazy rockinggggggggggggg.
of course i love F.T Island more.
MINHWANNNNNNNNNN.

hehehe. i'm engaged in a very funny conversation now.
stupid. but at least it makes me laugh.

FCK.

OH FKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK.
I GET SO FKING STRESSED UP EVERY TIME I STUDY PHYSICS.

i'm forgoing my higher chinese results for tmr's physics paper 1.
i don't like physics, i mean, i don't really hate it now, but it's just hard to like it..

i should do better for physics.
cos it wouldn't be very nice of me to let the efforts of those who taught me physics go wasted.
lol.
erhemmmm. okay. no joke no joke.

i've taken up a lot a lot of their time.
they can vomit blood just by teaching me physics.

[random..]

i never thought i would give this much of respect to someone.
i never realised how much i would do even if certain things weren't ask of him.
i didn't know i'll still feel bad and guilty when i flash those images across my mind.

and i never knew i could get so stress like that.

when i mean what i say, and when i say i won't do it again, then i won't.
i will not interfere unless neccessary and only when i realise something has changed,
otherwise i will not get too much into the whole business.
sorry but i'm really like this- cold and selfish.
i really cannot do it alone. i really feel a bit of the stress sometimes. i don't mind, but i'm afraid it's hard to suppress my feelings over long period of time.
i will realy help, once there's a change, a realization.
because i've came to understand that it's pointless saying anything now.
and in the end, what may be paid as a price is just .......
i don't know, i rather stop saying then.

nvm things will turn out to be fine.

tsk. i realise, i've been emitting weird kind of auras when i'm alone outside. omg.
what's wrong. anw it's good to seem intimidating sometimes.

recently i feel that the old self is coming back bit by bit already. haha.
nvm, holidays are coming, if nothing much happens, i'll continue being like what i am now.
but it'll also mean that, i have more time alone, and more time to think about stuffs in a negative way.

i don't like such feelings.
one moment i'm okay, the other moment i'm not.
it's sickening like this.

i know i won't meet such a person,
i know i don't trust them,
nevertheless, i still hope and wait.

THIS IS SICK. haha.
okay. done.

i'm currently thinking of a name for new blog address.
it'll be something related to F.T or minhwan. hehe.

day 3. woke up feeling better, and so i thought my appetite will be good for today.
but it turns out that it's not like that. -.-
z.z next time: eat healthy. (though i still won't care much.)
keep feeling that food is stuck halfway in the gullet. it just doesn't move down. not even pull of gravity or peristalsis help. joking~
my whole digestive system is just breaking down bit by bit, and that includes the oseophagus/gullet right.

i just drew the cute characters that minhwan and jaejin likes to draw. LOl.

TSK. i really wanna learn drumming and be a drummer like minhwan but i own no drums at home and i dunno if i can really learn it properly and it's expensive to learn and purchase drums and even if i really buy a drum set there wouldn't be any space at home to let me put them, so what i do, MinHwan always says he has no confidence but i think it needs a lot of courage to decide to be an artiste and now i just need that little bit more of confidence and desire to go and learn drumming, wth i cannot stand it, should i or should i not, what about after learning drumming, what can i do with this skill, but i'm always amazed by people who plays drums professionally and i admire it, so what can i do?
[my whine. -.-]
and it is the same as learning judo too.

the SAW movies always have rating R21.
i'll go crazy if i watch tha movie.
my imagination will go too wild to the extend that i'll be admitted to mental hospital.
and i'll only slowly torture myself there by imagining too much untill i finally die away.

had a another dream last night and.. things like that will only happen in dreams..
i always feel his presence.
the result of thinking too much.

how i hope i could get an A2 for physics.
actually i didn't care much for physics.. but the night before i sat for this paper, i was thinking about certain things and then the next day i feel a bit of- i want an A2 for physics.

don't ever mess with me or make me truely angry.

4 more papers to go..
i've got no comments about those papers which i did already.
-.-

what's with minari? he says he would like to give the person he likes undergarment and he wants to receive underwear as a gift. lols.
love minhwan still. keke.
but jahjinnie laughs in a very cute way.
i can't possibly like both right.
so i think i still prefer minhwan. lols.

F.T Island, HWAITING! {: