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total sadness with a bit of desperation.
Wednesday, March 10, 2010 || 5:01 AM
Skill, technique and timing, rather than the use of brute strength.oh heck! couldn't believe that i actually cried in nyjc. in MPR. in Judo.
it was so damn embarrassing. and it is STILL very embarrassing.
the sudden lack of confidence was because i cannot do shoulder throws.
they'll be graded, and the foot steps for throwing is absolutely important.
i don't want to fail the first grading exam.
3rd Physical Training-
this year's J1s are so strong that i feel intimidated.
the seniors also made everyone do 30 push-ups because ppl STROLLED and didn't try their best to run, and i see myself as one of them.
imagine how upset i was? am still very emo.
anyway, felt guilty for the other judo members, and i'm sorry cos i think it was quite disrespectful of me to show a very 'buay song' face after the punishment.
was only thinking of how i didn't want to be weak and that was the only way for me to push myself further next time.
after all the running, we went for gym training.
bar without weights can be heavy enough.
hais... i'm placing judo in FIRST PLACE already man.
what to do!
judo>studies>drums.
woah two weeks no drums..
friday's lesson will be damn scary already.
haven't been practising!! ):
give me more time.
i'll train. at least build up on my physical strength.
i'm scared of throwing, but i won't give up.
cos i wanna fight.i don't wanna lose.i hate losing.
