“life will be better in spring”

April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 July 2010 August 2010 September 2010 October 2010 November 2010 December 2010 January 2011 February 2011 March 2011 April 2011

i know i ought to stop thinking so much. but i guess i can't, at least for now. don't look at me during judo please. i saw it but i didn't dare to look back. guilty. after a few times i finally made myself face you and not look or turn away. why give me that kind of smile again. i don't know how to react. you suddenly sent me a msg and said sorry because you slept straight after you bathed last night. but when you sent that msg it was already past 1pm. i know my msg to you last night was only an 'Okays(:' and there is nothing to reply to that already. but why did you send me another msg in school. i know i'm emo-ing because i've been listening to sad songs recently. because of you i've been emo-ing every night. today i realised that i'm getting a little depressed too during the day. what to do. i didn't think all these would happen. i know you don't like me.(: i know you don't. one day i won't know how to face you anymore.

)': maybe. i. really. do. like. him.


well, at least aloysius(: (: (: makes me feel high and mustaffa was kinda funny today during judo.