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Thursday, May 27, 2010 || 8:00 AM
why do i feel as if i'm still waiting for your message when i know that you won't talk to me anymore and i will never take the first step now. i tried to get over the emo-ness and sian-ess by trying to type in 'haha' and 'lol' in my messages but they didn't help. i really tried to tell myself not to be scared but there is still the urge of crying. i wasn't planning to let anything affect me, but when the thought of "breaking an arm and the person you like doesn't seem to care about you" came across my mind, i couldn't control myself again. this time for gp paper 2, i actually allowed myself to stop thinking about the passage and think of you for more than 15 minutes i guess. I ACTUALLY ALLOWED THAT. I WAS THINKING OF YOU. normally i'll think of ag, and nobody else. i don't know what the hell i was doing. it sucks.
i never talk to you. it doesn't mean that i don't miss you at all.
i told others about the things i'm always upset with. because they're all about you.
i didn't sms you. because i'm waiting for your sms.
i feel like i'm dying now.
thanks to the arm injury, level of depression x5.
