“life will be better in spring”

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when you know that everything you want wouldn't and couldn't be your's,
the only thing you hope for is to be able to hold on to the most important one.
but when you know you have to let go of this only one that you only need, it's quite heartbreaking, isn't it?
...

i really really never like aloy or zy.

everytime i'll wonder what were those little little acts for?
and for many times, i reach no conclusion.
why did you sit on my table just now? why did you try touching the bandaged arm? why did you use your foot to touch me under the table, when i was sitting there and you were standing in front? there were other people around too you know? why did you swing your gi lightly at me?
WHY.
day by day, i'm getting tired of waiting already.
i know you're busy. but. .... i just don't know what you're thinking.



anyway, i'm glad that coach, some judokas and my classmates are concerned about my arm. coach's really nice. love him ttm. (: i don't want to be disappointing. i'm not going to wait until my arm heal completely, which is like 2-3 months.