“life will be better in spring”

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"You make your way in
I resist you just like this
You can't tell me to feel
The truth never set me free
So i did it myself"
- Careful by Paramore

everyone says it's worthless. no point. a waste of time. and that i'm just being stupid.

national day celebration. so paiseh during handball cos i didn't know the rules. zzz. tried playing soccer, it's so hard to playyyy. talked to him for a little little bit. happy and unhappy.
went to study alone at bishan library after that then went TTSH.
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doctor: don't do anything first.
me: *nodded my head* but i resumed training already.
doctor: HUH. (quite loudly)

almost got another serious injury! maybe my hamstring was pulled slightly. feels better today.

i miss coach. i miss judo. lol. he'sreallydamnhot. omg. hahaha. without the J2s around he can focus on teaching us more stuff. x)
and mr low (don't know whether it's this 'low' or not) reminds me of mr low.

nobody knows how much i wanted to smile when i saw him walking in during thurs training. then he left. i waited. and he came back with his bag. then he left again. saw him in the library during night study. but she was with him again.

today i came back to sleep, dreamt of him and when i woke up, the weird feeling is still with me. awesome.

at one point of time, reality was finally better than dreams.
then it became that dreams are better than reality again.
now, dreams are as awful as reality.

sighs. 6 more weeks to promo. i should make myself more busy.

oh yeahhhhh. learnt two things this week. firstly, always keep your back straight and never put all your weight on yur chest while doing groundwork. and coach told us a story. he wanted us to know that we have to believe in whatever we do so that we can achieve it. BELIEVE!