“life will be better in spring”

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wtf i don't even rmb getting my chest slammed/crashed during judo. it's hurting more than how much my butt hurts.
wth have i done.

life sucks today.

sighs. dunno what's wrong luh.
maybe avoiding doesn't help.
maybe feelings that have been concealed for too long can resurface again.
maybe not facing the true feelings for too long makes me confused now.

been acting like some loner in school nowadays..
and judo has resumed, i should stop whining so much during training.
coach's stories always scare me. sighs hope i can sleep well tonight. after having some 'nightmare', i couldn't sleep at home. so i ended up sleeping in school (alone) before judo started. haha.
sighs anyway i'll treasure the time to train before it ends next year. and coach might not be teaching nyjc anymore. >:

i miss ice-cream, Mac, KFC, LJS, Starbucks and popcorns. )):
i'll bear with it. gotta be real determined this time.

sighs i should stay away from people..

it's still a nice song..

who what when where why. and how...
sighs.

they should be treated like idiots. and they will be.

got back results today... left school early... went to meet yuhui...
hahaha i'm happy today and i appreciate it. :)
hope tmr's gonna be another awesome day. meeting friends again. hahaha keep meeting friends.

oh and this is what i found out... on msn..

ME: -.-!!!!
*my body is super duper stiff those kind
KS:
*like the guy you saw in the bus
*EH
*HOW COME
*YOU DONT WANT SIT BESIDE HIM
*HAHAHA
*GOT SEAT YOU DW SIT
*LOL
ME:
*HAHA. LOL
*cos i was feeling damn full
*i don't wanna sit down
KS:
*LOLLLLLLLLLLLLLL
*HAHHAHAHA
*DAMN FUNNY
ME:
*WHY?
KS:
*IF NOT FULL
*WILL SIT NOT
*LOL
ME:
*i'll sit somewhere else luh. lolol
*:x
KS:
*LOLLLLLLL
*PAI SEH AH
*HAHAHAHAHA
*HE SAY
*WALAO
*I MONSTER MEH
*WHY SHE DW SIT WITH ME
*HAHAHAHAHA
ME:
*LOLOLOLOLOL
*HAHAHHA
*YEAH PAISEH
*LOL
*cos i thought he dunno me
*but i know him
*then sit there like a bit
*....
*awkward
*hahahaha
KS:
*LOLLLLLLLL
*HAHAHAHAHAHA
*DAMN FUNNY
*HE TELL ME HE DAMN PEKCEK
*LOL
ME:
*OOPS. WHYY
*HAHAHA
KS:
*cause he say
*I MONSTER MEH
*WHOLE BUS
*ONLY BESIDE ME GOT SEAT
*SHE DW SIT
*WALAO
*LOL
ME:
*LOL WTF OKAY SERIOUSLY DAMN FUNNY
*I SHY LA CAN
*no lor actually in front got seat also
KS:
*HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
*IS IT
*STILL
*YOU
*DIDNT
*SIT
*LOL

HAHAHA I THINK THIS I DAMN FUNNY SERIOUSLY. OKAY MAYBE ONLY I FIND IT HILARIOUS. BUT AHAHAHA FUNNY. :X

still got this..

ME:
*WHERE GOT NICE?!
KS:
*WHEN I FIRST SAW YOU LAH
ME:
*when?!
*ALL ALONG NOT NICE
KS:
*MARCH
*LOL
ME:
*AND LEGS VERY HARD TO TRAIN.
KS:
*me and the guy you saw in the bus was like
ME:
*THAT TIME ALR FAT LIAO
KS:
*EH CHIO BU
*LOL
*wah hot leg chio bu
*HAHAHAHAHA
ME:
*?
*SIAO AH YOU TWO


WTFFF i'm gonna go 'beautify' my legs already. HAHAAHA. need to go for PHR treatments. lolol. -.-

i'll still respect you. cos you're my captain. your position is higher.

so last night's dream came true.
i wasn't informed that there's training, and i missed the training. wow i feel so proud i can predict future. tsk.
if judo isn't important to you, it doesn't mean it's also unimportant to me.
why must it always be me. and how fking hell is it always me.
i'm sure i haven't received anything from you before 9pm just now. how am i fucking supposed to face/treat you after all these?
no mood for judo training anymore. guess it's too much of a fantasy for me to want to perfect a throw. yeah just dream on, it'll at least happen in your dream.

zomg i knew it. i feel excited and scared at the same time.

had the third dream about judo last night ever since promos ended..
then i just received a message from the committee (not sure who is it), saying that there will be judo training this friday. i was smiling.. until i read this:
"Make sure you wear proper shoes..."
*ZOMG*
"...we will be having training at the atirum."
*WTHHH TROLL*
i guess it's probably because we still have lectures on friday and MPR will be used for A level examinations. :

sighs anyway, gonna spend the day chilling alone. not gonna talk to anyone today. (:

I feel like a lucky girlllllll. :)
switched on my laptop to watch Hello Baby as soon as I woke up in the afternoon and finished my lunch yesterday.
right after a few episodes, I went out to meet friends at NP. had curry don in NP's canteen. :D
THENNNN. at the bus stop, while waiting for the bus, which we just missed....
I saw a guy wearing blue singlet and jeans walked past and he seems hot just by looking at his back cos he's those kind of tall tanned and fit guy y'know y'know. zomggggg.
THENNNN. I saw his face and.. TADAAAA. he's my eyecandy from NP. zomgggg. :x
I guess I was damn luckyyyyyy. and the thing is, he wasn't wearing the geek specs ytd.. sooooo he was good-looking. :X :P ><
at night, texted with cousin until 2plus. talked about stuffs and it was coool, i like the feeling.
everything went smooth yesterday. enough for me to be appreciative and happy. :}

hope can bake gingerbread man and meet friends on christmassss. (:

fck i feel so disgusted seriously. either i'm disgusted with him or myself. if i ever gonna have the chance to re-step into nanyang, i swear i'm not gonna get near such a guy.

okay so today's the end of PW. screwed it up. whatever i can't changed anything anymore.

actually, i think friends are the best.
that's why i don't really feel like leaving this place that badly anymore.
but i guess i still need to go somewhere else for a while. :\

Can't a choice among Judo, trip with couz, CCA/NYJC Open House and OGL..
k i know i want too much.. ):
and i know everytime such a situation occurs, i end up losing everything/ not going anywhere/ emo alone at home.
sighs.

TAEMINNNNN~

I wonder how many times i've used this song title.

anyway, it's okay to screw your own life but it's not when you kinda screw other ppl's life too.

Is it really possible to like two ppl at the same time?...

muscles please ache tmr. pleaseeeeeee. ):

really can't understand myself....

seriously just stop being pissed off by guys. cos you knew right fromthe start that they will be disappointing.

I will make people remember me, in terms of fighting skills (in a POSITIVE way duhhhh).
I will.


I'm angry.
I want to crush everyone.


^^