“life will be better in spring”

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wl i don't want to repeat the same mistakes again and again. but.... i'm scared. ): really don't wanna like anyone now, especially ppl whom i shouldn't like in the first place. urghhhh. so irritating i hate this ttm. i know if i don't stay away from him, i'll definitely fall for him.... i don't want to!! )): what to do what to do what to do!?!

finally found them. those two guys are so nice. (:

hiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii judo camp was not bad. but i feel it can be better... if we're more bonded...

sighs i really feel like spamming all the vulgarities i know la knn. natasha says i need to attack, mr ho says i have my fear, ks say i hesitates too much wtf. really gonna remove the mind block otherwise i can't improve.

went to bps alone with ks ytd then he and joel followed me to budo. woah really learnt a quite a lot from the two of them. after training at budo the ny guys were playing with the equipment at budo like budo is their playground hahahah! joel and ks were like stunnneddddd.

i feel so old. ): the moment jonas called me jiejie, immediate heartbreak. ): i'm just two years older than those ppl!!

i want to be a doctor .

ahhhh i hate it whenever i wake up in the night just to cough and cough and cough and cough and then i go back to sleep and whenever i wake up there's this subconsciousness that i can't cough too loudly cos everyone's sleeping and each time i cough i feel the pain in my throat..... ugh. coughing just sucks. most of my friends just don't cough as much as i do..... so sometimes some of them don't understand............ how serious my cough can get.

anyway idk why some of the judo guys so joke. hahahhahaha. i hope i don't act like a flirt or anything. looks like i'm not as close as the other girls who're closer with the other girls. ~_~

oh yeahhhh i saw eyecandy from np at tpy and we were on the same bus. HYAKHYAKHYAK. okay not a very big deal but it was a one in a million chance, i wanted to smile at him (cos i said i would, the next time i see him) but............ oh well, as expected. ~shrugs~

i've never had a goal in my life before. i never dreamt of being anything, not to mention being a doctor.. now i think some courses sound interesting.. medicine kinda caught my attention. but... well i needa STUDY REAL HARD. should have been hardworking last year. *REGRETS* orz.

man you suck x3. i hate you for life. i hope i've never ever met you you sucker.
k now i'm just gonna pretend as if you don't exist, and nothing has happened before. suckerxzxz x10^23.